Things Unseen


With all the spiritual push-ups, I do during a month or even week, there should be no tugs of doubt or cramps of negativity on my spiritual body. I am stuck on Earth mode which means I can be as spiritual as I want to be but reality; all the concrete stuff going on or not going on makes believing in things not seen that much harder.

   Much like those peeking in on my life as it is right now, they may hear and see some of my grand efforts to re-establish myself in the concrete world but most likely roll their eyes and sigh like I have done because they have yet to see a proven result. I will admit that the false tid bits of hope and inspiration has helped me face each day, lightened the heaviness on my shoulders but none of the fairy dust I have doused myself in has opened any doors or handed me as of yet what I need and want most of all.

   A few years back I was in a similar situation where I felt the walls closing in and I was told by sources I won’t reveal that I would be taken care of and not to worry. Things did change and I was taken care of. I was blessed and given the opportunity many people dream of but having that cushion has both helped and hampered me. I am facing another situation where reality can cancel out my spiritual but this time without the cushion or anywhere soft to land. I have just cause to worry so when I tap into the spiritual bucket and I get don’t worry, you are on the verge of getting everything you want, I smile for a while then when a position denies me, I question whether the spiritual cheerleaders hold any valid license to see what’s on the horizon for me or anyone for that matter

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