Extracting




I have been asked by various people why I put up with a certain person’s behavior. This person they all referred about is someone not related, not my lover and certainly not anyone that pays my bills or has any direct input on how I live my life. I have in the past cut ties with so called friends that I was unable to adjust to their schedules or they were unable to adapt to my shifting moods. The bottom line was lack of understanding on both ends.

  At first glance this person can be charming, witty, smart and as one sits and listens he evokes and engages both logical and whimsical conversations. He likes to dodge reality as often as he can, the venue in which he can be mostly found encourages non -reality set ups. He is the proverbial eight-year-old boy throwing stones at hornet nests just to see how long he can do it before getting stung then blaming the hornet for stinging him or not allowing him to throw more rocks.

   The more balanced soul will either giggle or wince at his button pushing mannerisms and move along. For me it’s been about understanding. I put up with this character because he is a male version of me to some degree. I believe we all have at least one opposite gender person who crosses our path that we instantly connect with, that has that familiarity to them. People cross our paths for many different reasons but I have found the ones that irritate me the most, if I don’t burn bridges along the way, I often learn things from them about me. Everyone seems to think our walk here is supposed to be always peaceful and easy peazy; LOL.

 I had met up with the male version of me but there are subtle and some not so subtle differences. I feel that if there wasn’t that intense connection it would have been real easy to just click and delete. We have had our share of misunderstandings and bruised egos and yes long periods of silence where I would freak out feeling he didn’t want anything to do with me anymore but he always returns. I put up with the rock throwing and the, my way or the highway attitude from him for two reasons; I may not like it but I understand now why and because I have something else to extract from our tornado like friendship and I think maybe he does too

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