To Follow The Gut Or The Compass
As I walk through this life I try to understand and evaluate
my steps, my path and my gate. There are times, I must admit, that I get stuck
in a moment and analyze or over analyze my thoughts, other people’s thoughts and
things that may or may not happen. I don’t care how balanced or grounded you
think you are, we all do it but our times stuck in that moment of course vary.
I find myself often getting too wound up over something that hasn’t happened yet
and all that does is distort and exaggerate yet knowing that pearl I still get
overly concerned about the small stuff which weighs down or prevents me to
focus on the larger picture.
A recent
opportunity blew in the other day, I was not all hands and feet into it but I
thought I owed it to myself to at least go in and hear what it was about. Like
easting oysters, you eat enough eventually you will find a pearl, lol. My gut
coupled with prior experiences was trying to alert me that this was not a
golden egg, it was not a tucked in opportunity but since I had nothing going on
that day I said yes to a meet and greet. I got so wound up in trying to pin
point its location because showing up late regardless if it’s your fault or not
can easily eliminate you from getting your foot in the door. When I finally
found where I needed to be I was relaxed enough to think more clearly.
By the time, I
moseyed in not at all nervous about the actual meet I had decided not to sign
anything or offer out any information unless I felt secure. There was the usual
paperwork involved then I saw a stack of documents that was going to give out
personal and financial information and before I met with the lady I asked if I had
to sign all that to hear what was being offered. I got a fast and abrupt almost
with an attitude interview with this lady. I admire her honesty, she reminded
me of myself, but the gut feeling I tried to ignore was on point. It was this lady’s
job to pull in possibilities for something that may happen or pop up; she was
not going to hunt me down a position and the what I was lured there for was
just that a lure. It was pretty much left in my hands where I wanted to go with
this and by the time she got up and left the room I had made my decision.
The point I was
trying to make here was that I was so bent out of shape worried about finding
where this place was that I ignored my gut instinct that it was just a reach
out and pull on their part. I could have avoided all the stress that I put in
and the effort but then again I really do feel that all experiences both good
and bad or disappointing or frustrating help lead to some understanding and
hopefully a resolve.