A Message From Beyond


















Spouse or Significant other: It wasn’t my choice to make my exit the way I did, I disliked not being able to leave you some words of comfort but then again me saying goodbye would have totally imprisoned you. Hard to describe where I am now but I can hear you and feel you when you weep and remember. You don’t have to apologize for finding comfort or moving on and you don’t have to feel guilty; I know you love me  and I will always be “Thee One”.I do feel and hear when you think of me or talk to me during the wee hours when no one is listening. I am so proud of the progress you have made but don’t be afraid to be happy or love again, I want that for you that is what love is, wanting someone to be happy and experience life completely even if you are no longer there to participate. Forever is where I am now and one day when you get pulled you will be here with me, forever but you don’t get to decide when that happens. Please for me, on the day of the anniversary of my departure go out for breakfast somewhere and be with family or friends, don’t relive the shock and horror. It will only lesson your progress but I know more than anyone you will do what comes naturally. Do whatever it is that you do to find some comfort but please don’t stay there. You hurting and immortalizing me can’t bring me back, it won’t change things. You are smart and resourceful, what I left behind for you, they are counting on it. P.S. Don’t be so hard on other people that may not understand; they are not supposed to. Keep focused on what you do have and take care of yourself.



Mother/Father/ Grandparent/Guardian: Dear Child, I lived my life and raised you the best way I knew how. I tried many times many ways to make you feel secure and happy. Your smiles and laughter made all the tough spots manageable. I did lose a tiny part of my wild and free me, sacrificed my wants and needs for yours. My hope as we both got older that I gave you the base to which to grow your own life on one day. I know I made lots of mistakes and you will too. The one thing we never discussed even though there were plenty of opportunities was death and dying. Too heavy of a topic to bring up while living a life fully. The cycle of birth and death is infinite, whatever is brought into this existence will one day expire. It is not a punishment and not meant at all to keep you aching and feeling the loss. You had to have known that I would one day pass. I always thought that I would want to live forever there, watch you and the grandchildren and their children get to my age but now that I’m here, out of that body free from sickness I have a different outlook. I still get to see and hear what goes on both the good and the bad. I do from time to time leave subtle love reminders that our bond was not broken. I know you miss me and feel I need to be there for every step of your walk but you got this. One day when it’s your time you will be saying like your children. If I did my job as a parent correctly I would have taught you to love openly, give often and guard yourself for the inevitable. Remember me, no one wants to be forgotten but don’t be afraid to live your life. You don’t need me there to touch or hold onto, our connection cannot be broken.



Child/Brother/Sister: Who would have thought that I would be the first to go? It wasn’t my intention to leave without a goodbye. It was not penciled in my planner to leave, I even asked to be returned for your sake, knowing that my departure would totally gut you. After I went through the reunion thing and cleaned up and set up straight then brought to my forever I realized that things here are good and I’m happy. It makes me smile when you remember me but it hurts me when I see you stuck in sadness, you will understand one day. For the record, I prefer not to be memorialized how I died but for how I made you smile or for some of the crazy stunts I pulled off. It’s not possible for me or anyone to fill that void where I once was. Life in the flesh for you and life in the spirit for me continues, that all I can say for now. Life for all us was altered the day of my passing, there is no reset. I just want you to know that it was probably not easily or often said but I love you. I swear when you get here it’s all going to make sense but until then…. live your life. Oh, yeah, one last thing, I hear you better when you talk with me through thought; you’ll figure it out







words by Lisa C photography by Jennifer Cowan



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