Universal Minds


I always find humor in my frustration, of course after the fact hardly ever during. For a long dry season there are days that I see or hear from anyone, more in point the ones I really want to hear or see. There are a couple I have hoped to catch the attention of and some, well, some my day would not burst into flames if I never heard from again. At one time of course I did place a great deal of importance on them being part of my routine then I said something or they said something and things went into another phase. The frustration was in me trying to gain some me time with a certain individual and not getting it then me backing down or away and moving on then out of nowhere they suddenly appear trying to resurrect what once was. I’m okay with re-establishing a friendship of sorts with boundaries and they themselves may have the same but to try to pick up where things left off…. not my thing.

   I laugh at the irony because I was feeling invisible and seeking some kind of mindless or mindful chatter, I did have in mind a couple of guys, and pretty much within two days I heard from some I hadn’t in a while, not the two I was hoping for. Right in the midst of writing this determined to share my thoughts someone I had never met before crashing into my chatroom I had forgotten I had opened and for almost three hours we talked, I mean talked not flirted. For the first time in a long time I felt like the universe finally heard me.

    I had previously wrote about feeling on edge like I wanted something big to happen but I didn’t quite know what. It felt quite nice to chat with someone like minded. The two of us on opposite ends of the earth and age but we connected. I have no idea how long or what capacity he was sent in my path for but at this point I don’t care. I have met other spiritual type connections over the past few years that I still keep in touch with mostly through google +, twitter and email that crossed my path for both inspiration, encouragement and a connection that is often felt without words.

  The awkward uncomfortableness I was being suffocated by this past weekend has passed and a slow understanding of why. Even if I never get to speak with this young man from down under again what we discussed and shared in those few hours cleared the fog and lifted me up

   I have always been a believer that people come and go out of your life for a reason and my visitor from down under more than half my age re-enforced that belief. I also have had older sages that brought enlightenment and friendship and helped me through some uneasy times. It just blows my mind sometimes

Popular posts from this blog

Swallowing an Elephant

You know that joke/riddle How do you eat an elephant? A-One bite at a time. For most that seems to be the most logical. The elephant is quite large and nobody can just pop one in their mouth but oddly enough there are people out there that want you to over tax your system trying to get one down in one bite. Apparently, there are some lucky individuals out there who can unhinge their jaw and eat an elephant in one or two tries so that sets the bar for everyone else. I am not so blessed to be able to unhinge my jaw and swallow large objects.    My capacity to learn and adapt to familiar things that need to be dusted off and new ways takes more than a day or two. I know the elephant swallowers are in high demand and get cut higher respect but I feel the nibblers are just as worthy. Patience is a skill that has been slacking both in the people who want to try to make a nibbler into a swallower and those who are observing and comparing; even the nibbler wanting to be perfect...
Read more

Breathing

When someone asks me how I am I usually respond with okay which means nothing bad or good is going on. When things aren’t so okay I reply with “I’m barely breathing” which means I’m highly stressed out over something. When I listen to meditation videos they always start out with deep breathing, at first, I thought it was kind of silly to concentrate so much on breathing. I also started to notice my breathing when I was stressed out or intensely involved in something. I have two destructive breathing patterns that take place, I either over breath or shallow breathe; sometimes I even subconsciously hold my breath. None of the three poor breathing methods make a happy functioning body. It’s funny to have to learn how to breath properly because it’s something we do automatically.    With some unknown allergies or on and off sinus issues I already face upper repertory struggles at times. When I over breath due to some hidden or not so hidden stress I notice changes in my bod...
Read more