Living Normal




There are days when I feel invincible

I stand tall and feel courageous

I can answer any question without hesitation

Resist temptations that give me false comfort

I meet and take on challenges out of reach

I may not like all sudden changes but I adapt

My heart is filled with hope and I believe that I can

I believe that things will turn in my favor

I also have days when I feel invisible

Where I have a need not met

There is some kind of loss or denial

My arms are flailing and my words spit out bitter

I could set myself on fire and no one notices

I go quiet and retreat somewhere unnoticed rarely visited

I surround myself in my heavy cloak of invisibility

A day maybe two, thinking, sulking, watching life pass by

I then emerge and try to balance my wants and needs against reality

Invisible against invincible

I am not unique by any means

I’m normal

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