Disclaimer


I often wonder if those who watch what I post on social media or not post, if they view me as cold, aloof and unfeeling when it comes to Hallmark days and everyone gushes and I don’t. A majority of my gushing or expressions are often through my poetry or in short writings like this one and most often not shared with family and friends via Face Book. There are two reasons why I don’t gush or share everything; one is that I am not always in the same mindset, not void of feeling but in the same intensity. The other one is I spent a majority of my life funneling my feelings, good, bad or indifferent through my writing mostly because there were no computers or social media growing up and I got real good at redirecting my feelings. I will admit there have been some poems and writings I wrote for some people connected to me that I could have easily shared on social media like Face Book but I posted them on here instead.

   I have memories of family and friends both living and passed on and if you sat with me in person or on the phone I would share. Just because I choose not to be expressive on the more popular social media apps doesn’t mean I’m void of feeling, I just do it differently

  

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