Truth amd Integrity


Ever since I can remember I was told to always trust your gut instinct. It made giggle because I never understood what that meant. As I got older and developed some kind of spiritual intuitive flare that expression began to make more sense to me. There were certain situations and people I would encounter that I got a weird feeling about. Through trial and error, I learned that deep uneasiness around people and situations meant to stay away trying not to confuse that with just nerves. My gut barometer when I allowed it to be my third eye most times was spot on.

  Over the past few years my barometer has been a little off. People who I thought had my back turned theirs on me and situations where I thought I nailed it, well I wasn’t even close. So now I am back to scrapping my highly positive I got this attitude and having to rethink or find a way to recalibrate my gut barometer. My most recent quest for the Holy Grail has been thwarted due to lack of a proper response. There has been no official notice I have been crossed off the list and some would argue that no news is good news but my experience is overriding my gut.

   I was way off judging the character and the integrity of the people in charge probably because I was blinded by the casualness and the way out in left field craft of the position. I have been numbed over the years with taking the easy route, the closer road and I decided to step out of the box. I felt I owed it to myself to at least try. I thought my try out went very well and my gut told me I had made a connection. I really tried to wrap myself in positivity going with the light attracts light, good thoughts attract good actions theory allowing trace amounts of reality to slip in. I have been down this same road a few times now, I am very disappointed but this time not at me but at the people I thought had some integrity.

  Like the X Files saying, “The truth is out there” so is Integrity…. I hope to find both

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