True Colors

I always feel that I am less whole because of what I don’t have, that I am missing out on what so many have like a ton of friends or a solid relationship someone I can rest my tired head on. I am learning to appreciate what I do have and weight it against what I don’t and it always seems to balance out. I don’t like being uncomfortable, I really don’t enjoy waiting for something I feel entitled to and I don’t always understand why people are thrown in then yanked out of your life. I do however even though it hurts upon impact like being shown certain people’s character or the lack there of.

  I am always being thrown in the fire, some think I am void of compassion and some feel I am too compassionate and I should live in a world designed just for my needs and wants and to hell with everyone else. It’s not until someone with narrow vision and ice for a heart comes into my path that I understand my visions, my scope of passion and compassion. Even though my arrow points up at the stars  and I have yet to hit one and my arm often gets tired and I get frustrated, I realize when I cross paths with someone absent of passion and warmth that I have all the qualities they lack and one day I will hit that star. I can’t give up on love and I will never apologize for being idealistic or for being hurt by those who can’t see the big picture beyond themselves.