From Different Sources


I shouldn’t let popularity status control whether there is weight on my wings or wind beneath. I do get ruffled when I see certain people who say and post anything and it seems like the world stops and acknowledges but when I do it a few make  an effort. I am hurt that the people who I thought should be supportive go AWOL but then get upset with myself because I make that the center of my focus in my walk. For some reason I want to understand why, perhaps crash down the walls and be closer, for them to understand  and like me.

   I don’t want social media to dictate my status in day to life or manipulate whether I am happy or not. I do get annoyed and discouraged when I see a post of a pic of a caterpillar or someone setting themselves on fire get thousands of views but when I post something meaningful and personal it get barely noticed. I hate the fact that I get controlled by such status but when you are trying to get noticed to sell something you created or believe in, you do have to poke your head in and track the kind of stuff.

  I do have myself spread out on different media platforms which is good for me because with a few exceptions who chime in and share my announcements on FB, I get encouragements and compliments and wind beneath my wings to soar, even if I have to do it solo. I know networking has been around for a long time and I am trying to get my feet wet in the networking pool. I want to stay true to who I am and not feel compelled to get all political, you know kissing babies and promising this or that just to get noticed.

  I do try to keep connected with people I thought I was close with by reading what they post and at least clicking like but I don’t get the same in return. I have allowed the people who don’t click like, share or comment on my posts to consume me and that’s the part I am most upset with; me getting twisted up over whether something I post gets acknowledged.

  I now know where my support and encouragement lay and sadly where it doesn’t. In order for me to stop chasing my tail and driving myself crazy over whether someone likes me or supports my dreams, I need to just stop making social media my guru and my source of happiness.

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