The Golden Eggs and the Social Beanstock


Out a burst or angry energy after a verbal beat down I took my mighty keyboard and stirred the pot. I am sure I will be viewed as somewhat crazy for investing what few golden eggs I still have into a social beanstalk. With all the arguments I tried to throw out to not do this and not go hear what this social beanstalk was all about even me being on the tail end of a juicy sinus infection couldn’t pull up a good reason as to why I couldn’t for the initial meeting. I even had an anxiety attack as I drove to it.

   As I type this I still don’t have a prospect for a paying job which colors me investing some coins in this social bean stock even more crazy. It’s like buying tomato seeds and hoping to get eggplants somewhere in the patch or throwing seeds out the window and then worrying about a patch of soil and proper sun. I have been over the months trying to conventional way to market myself and gain employment but just not working, figuratively and literally.  I am on the verge of settling  for anyone looking for someone with a pulse job wise but right now I still have a splash of stubbornness in me and believe something nice will open up for me and I won’t have to compromise who and what I am to get in. People outside looking in on me see me wasting my golden blessings, I understand all that but if you had an opportunity to be choosey and want better for yourself and had the means to be choosey, well let’s just say most would sit and exhale a bit. Retirement is built on that but most by the time they call it quits and collect their chump change they are too old and not so healthy to do fun things or able to enjoy what they wanted to enjoy when they were younger.  Just saying….

   This social beanstalk is definitely going to spatula my ass of the computer chair and leave my TV wondering. To say it will push me out of my comfort zone, ha ha ha oh hell yeah. I am tired of settling for nothing and calling it something. I’m not sure what I’ll end up with but it will be better than partial isolation. I also figure that by actually getting out there and meeting people it will give me some practice on networking and perhaps lining up with someone that knows someone on somewhere to hook up job wise. All I know is that my current method isn’t really working so who knows. YES, it would have been nice to have had an actual job before approaching the social bean stock. I will have to get creative and find ways to say that I’m a dinosaur in search of a Jurassic Park movie to play in.  I’m creative, I can do that.

  

  

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