Observation


Chasing the drama to offset

Pockets of stillness and mediocre

Mixed with a blend of genuine concern

Able to understand there is no easy way out

But refusing to let go and move on

 

I watch you as you hold controversy

Close to your heart

It gives you purpose while it eats away idle time

Draws attention to your all giving, all giving range

You equate peace and stillness

To having to listen to your own heart beating

So you find something, anything to distract

You become consumed with it all

 

I have come to realize that

It’s not quiet or a steady flow of calm, you seek

But an ongoing surge of mental stimulation

That will constantly keep you connected

You search for that misplaced, out of reach, upside down

Person or situation

Make that your focal point

While juggling everyone else’s lives

Not necessarily a bad attribute

Just an observation

 ......Lisa C

 

 

 

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