Would Have Been Nice


You will one day find out who I was

But I won’t be here to hear the nice things you might say

I will be finally free and somewhere where I will be appreciated

Understood

Loved

You will one day read my struggles, my fears my wants and my hurts

Who gained proper favor in my eyes and why

And who lost any form of flattery or broke my heart

By the time you force out that obligatory tear

It will be way too late to lie to me one more time

It would have been so much nicer

Had you told me while I drowned in loneliness

Felt like a stranger or a burden

I watched and listened as you bled and opened yourself up

For any and everybody but for me

Your kind words long after my departure

Will not be heard or remotely felt

You had more than your share of opportunities

While I had breath in my lungs

Had you given me just a little of your precious time

I would have melted down and given you the world

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