In the Top 5

With all the devices and applications and gateways to make communication easier you would think that there would be no excuses. The old standby, I was really busy doesn’t really make any sense to me anymore. I can understand to a point that calling someone on the phone can tie you into a long winded conversation but in my conception of thought there is no valid excuse for not taking a minute maybe two minutes to tap out a text, instant message or email. Nobody is that freaking busy! The real reason that someone doesn’t keep communication alive is that they don’t want to. In some cases they may want to but are hesitant because they lack confidence or social skill or sometimes feel threatened but the bottom line is they don’t really want to.  

   Yes, there are always circumstances that can distract someone’s attention but logically speaking there are 24 hours in a day, you cannot convince me that a person doesn’t have two minutes to tap out a reach out to someone. I get that people have lives to live, their online life is a mere fraction and that nobody is obligated to do anything they don’t want to do both electronically or in real life. I have done a lot of people observation over the years and one thing is  known to be true is that people will walk over hot coals, cut off a limb or wipe their slate clean to get something they really want or someone they desire. They make extreme efforts, sacrifices and are willing and able to do whatever it takes to secure a chance. So when I hear or read that I didn’t hear back from someone because of how busy they are or how caught up they were in some personal drama, I grind my teeth.

   Listen, I know the sun doesn’t revolve around me and I don’t expect anyone to drop and roll for me; would be nice once and awhile but I’m realistic. I prefer someone being straight up with me than throwing me filler homogenized replies. Oh yeah, it’s tough to read sometimes or digest but it’s better than being fed bullshit. I agree that friendships or love ships that form naturally without a lot of effort are the best, they may not last as long as we may want but even when there is turbulence they are great. Investing a great deal of time and energy into something or someone that isn’t paying off can only build frustration, disappointment and resentment. There are some close friends or associates who I refuse to cut loose even though they don’t poke their nose in on me as often as I feel they should because they have formed a tight bond with me then there are those who are surface acquaintances who peek my curiosity but make me question why.

  What I take away from all this is is that if I have to jump through hoops of fire just to open up a simple line of communication that it's not meant to be. I'm worth more than being kept at arms length, deserve to be treated like I'm in the top five instead of a passing thought when nothing or nobody else is available.