Winds of Change
Right now, I would have to say that I'm happy. I honestly never thought I would be in the position that I'm in right now, in fact because of the things I had hoped to change hasn't really, I still see myself as being the person who I was prior to all the nice stuff happening now. I might have a little more say in things or wiggle room but who and what I am still remains.
It's hard to accept or wrap my mind around the flurry of good things that this year so far has resonated considering the entire year of 2013 made me question my existence. I think everyone at some pint in their life questions why something unpleasant or earth shattering happens to them and feels that this is their lot in life. None of any of what I went through in 2013 was unique but because I was so hung up in fearing the worst, worrying over things that might happen or obsessing over what other may think or expect of me and from me; I was unable to think clearly and prepare myself for a change that would be breathe new life in me.
I have no freaking idea what is on my horizon but I am seeing slight shifts in letting go of things that are not working in my favor and stepping out of my comfort zone to ignite sparks and light fires where there needs to be. I have tried to be conventional, on the books, coloring inside the lines because that is what society and the work force expects and for a long time I was able to get by on that but because my eyes have been opened and a new and better me is emerging, coloring inside the lines just isn't cutting it.
I have always believed that things happen for a reason. If something puts you in an uncomfortable position where you might have to alter your life or current way of thinking then maybe that will be the catalyst to change not only you but the people in and around your life. Sometimes you have to spend some time in the dark to appreciate the light.
It's hard to accept or wrap my mind around the flurry of good things that this year so far has resonated considering the entire year of 2013 made me question my existence. I think everyone at some pint in their life questions why something unpleasant or earth shattering happens to them and feels that this is their lot in life. None of any of what I went through in 2013 was unique but because I was so hung up in fearing the worst, worrying over things that might happen or obsessing over what other may think or expect of me and from me; I was unable to think clearly and prepare myself for a change that would be breathe new life in me.
I have no freaking idea what is on my horizon but I am seeing slight shifts in letting go of things that are not working in my favor and stepping out of my comfort zone to ignite sparks and light fires where there needs to be. I have tried to be conventional, on the books, coloring inside the lines because that is what society and the work force expects and for a long time I was able to get by on that but because my eyes have been opened and a new and better me is emerging, coloring inside the lines just isn't cutting it.
I have always believed that things happen for a reason. If something puts you in an uncomfortable position where you might have to alter your life or current way of thinking then maybe that will be the catalyst to change not only you but the people in and around your life. Sometimes you have to spend some time in the dark to appreciate the light.