Connection

I knew right from the start
that I would not touch you with my flesh
or get inside your mind, your heart
nor get open privileges to call you mine
that I would be kept from free access from
give and take dialog
that I would not be able to paint you my lover
nor color you passionate for me
as I was and am for you

With everything that I know
neither reason nor proper logic
could then nor now wash away
how I feel towards you
there are limits and borders but
even when you are not around there is a bond
a connection
weaker now than past years but a connection

I am right here like always
basking in the bond and living my life
the only way I know how
and finally accepting you living your life
your way

Though you can not bring yourself to say it
I  know
and it's been on my lips many times but not
said out loud
 you know
and that is what counts at the end of the day



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