Not Like The Others

maybe I can't have you like I want you
not the right setting or lifetime to make it happen
maybe I try too hard to keep you close
during separation I want you more but I understand
maybe I see things in you that reflect things in me
we test each others patience and lean in then pull apart
but maybe that is all we can be to each other, I don't know

maybe I ask too much that you join me in the light
to trust me and seek refuge in my company from what ever your life dishes out
maybe what ever it is that you are struggling with, won't let you
or perhaps I'm not the one because of where you are and where I am
that you will unravel to

maybe because you're not asking anything of me
just to respect what you can offer and what you can't
that during times of absence we end up drifting back
maybe this is all it can be
and I accept it

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