Hidden Agenda

I used to think of myself as being simple and undefined but now I see my life and journeys as being complex and directed. I know more of what irritates me, cuts into me, frustrates me than I know of what I want and where I want to be. I am sure that for most that hits home, alot easier to define who you are by what you don't want than by what you do want.Perhaps, because of situations and people throughout my life walk I have had to react like a child and lose then break it all down and rebuild and accept like an adult.
  I have not lead a life filled with adventure and admiration but I have gone through some crap both in my personal life and  employment life that has opened my eyes to alot. I am not unique by any means and my story I guarantee can be felt by many, I'm just  pulling up the vial and bleeding it out in type. It is not my mission to walk around open wounded expecting compensation from the ones that shake and rattle me or from anyone really who takes the time to find out what's going on with me.
  I am a down to earth person but I have complex overtones. Like everything in life there are conditions and clauses that can turn something smooth into a bumpy ride. Everyone sees themselves as being totally open and condition free and I used to cling to that thinking I had some kind of cutting edge. All of us have something we need or want from someone so way down deep we do have some kind of hidden agenda; we just don't know it really at the time.

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