Echo advice
This week has been about making decisions and trying to follow through on them. since being released back into the atmosphere twice in the last 5 and half months I have had to find me horizon line during some storms that left me without sight or balance. I would look around me and see that everybody else was in harmony with their surroundings;their life, their world was peachy keen but mine wasn't. yes, I had food and shelter and basics and a family safety net and inside loan go to but i was far from okay. Mentally and emotionally I was a train wreck because I was resting on a broken system, holding out because I knew I did no wrong and eventually the pendulum would swing my way. There must be a hung jury or something on my case because as of today I am still stuck in limbo.
I have a friend who I have written about a few times. She hates her job and her relationship with her boyfriend is always in peril. It seems like once a month she discovers yet another deal breaker and few days go by and bam she's right back snuggled up to him like it never happened. I have in the past tried to be her shoulder and offer some sound advice which she has yet to take. It dawned on me this time around as I came come to begging her to find a better job and end the relationship with him. I heard the urgency in my voice as I told her to do something about both situations before she loseses all self respect and passion in life. I knew as soon as the conversation ended in text format of corse that she was going to take the safe route and do nothing. As for me I knew what I had to do to stop my crazy ass cycle of spinning my wheels.
I didn't want for collecting unemployment benefits to give me false security which i guess many do. For some even though the pay out here in Florida is insult to injury it does pay a bill or two but for the crafty it's enough to sit back and lazy it up and milk it. I didn't want unemployment to be my employer and I never wanted to milk the system. I wanted to take some time to breath and find a job that I was more suited for. I wanted to brake the cycle of grabbing just anything just to keep afloat then end up back asking for assistance.
I was graced into a position with some help from a co worker at a law firm almost 20 miles from my home. It was a lot harder to try to learn all the terms and procedures than I thought and not being a quitter I wanted to continue but a day before my two weeks I was let go. I made too many errors and wasn't catching on fast enough. It gutted me and I thought I would b able to just re open my claim and continue searching for thee job. I reopened the claim but going on 2 months now I have yet to see any money in fact it's all tied up in bullshit because I was forced to put down fired. The only other choice was laid off due to lack or work or reduced hours. It's been held hostage all this time and I wait and wait but nothing.
So, as I heard myself console my friend into making a decision about her situations and I realized she is not going to be brave and do what needs to be done to bring back peace and harmony but all this waiting around on my end for decision for my fate to be handed to me somewhere down the road. I have been searching for thee job out there but I felt I had room to search longer but because the financial part is in bondage I no longer have that freedom. I bit the bullet and made the call to try to end my relationship with boredom, no money and most of all my connection with state assistance.
I have a friend who I have written about a few times. She hates her job and her relationship with her boyfriend is always in peril. It seems like once a month she discovers yet another deal breaker and few days go by and bam she's right back snuggled up to him like it never happened. I have in the past tried to be her shoulder and offer some sound advice which she has yet to take. It dawned on me this time around as I came come to begging her to find a better job and end the relationship with him. I heard the urgency in my voice as I told her to do something about both situations before she loseses all self respect and passion in life. I knew as soon as the conversation ended in text format of corse that she was going to take the safe route and do nothing. As for me I knew what I had to do to stop my crazy ass cycle of spinning my wheels.
I didn't want for collecting unemployment benefits to give me false security which i guess many do. For some even though the pay out here in Florida is insult to injury it does pay a bill or two but for the crafty it's enough to sit back and lazy it up and milk it. I didn't want unemployment to be my employer and I never wanted to milk the system. I wanted to take some time to breath and find a job that I was more suited for. I wanted to brake the cycle of grabbing just anything just to keep afloat then end up back asking for assistance.
I was graced into a position with some help from a co worker at a law firm almost 20 miles from my home. It was a lot harder to try to learn all the terms and procedures than I thought and not being a quitter I wanted to continue but a day before my two weeks I was let go. I made too many errors and wasn't catching on fast enough. It gutted me and I thought I would b able to just re open my claim and continue searching for thee job. I reopened the claim but going on 2 months now I have yet to see any money in fact it's all tied up in bullshit because I was forced to put down fired. The only other choice was laid off due to lack or work or reduced hours. It's been held hostage all this time and I wait and wait but nothing.
So, as I heard myself console my friend into making a decision about her situations and I realized she is not going to be brave and do what needs to be done to bring back peace and harmony but all this waiting around on my end for decision for my fate to be handed to me somewhere down the road. I have been searching for thee job out there but I felt I had room to search longer but because the financial part is in bondage I no longer have that freedom. I bit the bullet and made the call to try to end my relationship with boredom, no money and most of all my connection with state assistance.