Catch and Release
I have no idea how today will unfold. i can base prediction on past results and most of the time I'm on point but I do try to stay open to any possibilities. Yesterday, due to circumstances beyond any control on my part i ran into another brick wall and I allowed it to steal the already fragile peace I worked so hard to attain. I knew pretty much what i was going to find or hear when I took a peek or stab at something I already knew the answer to. It was not a smart move on my part but I was hoping that the odds would be in my favor. As I rested my face in my hands seconds after ending a frustrating phone call but I held myself back from spinning into a total meltdown.
As I tried to block out totally immersing myself in self pity by trying to get absorbed in what ever tv programming on it dawned on me a past sermon pastor Bob did years back on worrying. Although I could not recall word for word I did remember the just of what was preached. Worrying over matters that we have no control over, matters that require waiting it out; rob us of opportunity and time. It stresses our whole being and pushes away or inhibits us from true growth. Logically speaking, worrying frantically over something regardless of whether it is a great concern or not never changes the situation in your favor. I think back to all the times I freaked out over something I had no real control over. It interrupted my sleep, bled into my eating habits, shut down any kind of rational thinking and spun webs of insecurity around me.
I always thought that all that was invisible to everyone else because I thought I was holding myself together when I was around other people when I was worrying myself into a frenzy. In my mind I was portraying a together individual with some minor emotional hiccups but what it was really displaying was out of control control freak with no balance or grounding and not sending out good vibes. I think we all get like that sometimes, alittle too wrapped up in something we want to correct or stabilize but can't and become someone we're not. I do believe that a certain amount of being concerned over things that trouble us can stimulate change for the good but when we insist on allowing it to saturate our whole mind body and soul then it becomes a blockage and becomes a problem.
I will admit that I worry needlessly over things I have no real control over. I have not mastered the art of catch and release yet. Catch and release is where you acknowledge a problem or issue, think about, try to solve it and if it can't be easily solved....let it go, release it. It is more easy to say all this than it is to just do it but I am learning. Like I said in my opening, I have no idea what today will unfold but I do know that today is a clean slate and what ever issues I danced around with yesterday or last week I refuse to dance with them this day or even tomorrow
As I tried to block out totally immersing myself in self pity by trying to get absorbed in what ever tv programming on it dawned on me a past sermon pastor Bob did years back on worrying. Although I could not recall word for word I did remember the just of what was preached. Worrying over matters that we have no control over, matters that require waiting it out; rob us of opportunity and time. It stresses our whole being and pushes away or inhibits us from true growth. Logically speaking, worrying frantically over something regardless of whether it is a great concern or not never changes the situation in your favor. I think back to all the times I freaked out over something I had no real control over. It interrupted my sleep, bled into my eating habits, shut down any kind of rational thinking and spun webs of insecurity around me.
I always thought that all that was invisible to everyone else because I thought I was holding myself together when I was around other people when I was worrying myself into a frenzy. In my mind I was portraying a together individual with some minor emotional hiccups but what it was really displaying was out of control control freak with no balance or grounding and not sending out good vibes. I think we all get like that sometimes, alittle too wrapped up in something we want to correct or stabilize but can't and become someone we're not. I do believe that a certain amount of being concerned over things that trouble us can stimulate change for the good but when we insist on allowing it to saturate our whole mind body and soul then it becomes a blockage and becomes a problem.
I will admit that I worry needlessly over things I have no real control over. I have not mastered the art of catch and release yet. Catch and release is where you acknowledge a problem or issue, think about, try to solve it and if it can't be easily solved....let it go, release it. It is more easy to say all this than it is to just do it but I am learning. Like I said in my opening, I have no idea what today will unfold but I do know that today is a clean slate and what ever issues I danced around with yesterday or last week I refuse to dance with them this day or even tomorrow